WOW!!! In church today all i could do was cry. I Have been praying for more of a servants heart. a broken heart.

Today in church, during the worship it was like i could hear the Lord say to me.

Yes, im putting that heart in you. a givers heart. a servants heart.

being a giver has nothing to do with weather you have alot to give or not. its the fact that you discover this profound joy and new found satisfaction in giving freely from your heart and being lead of the holy spirit in your giving.

I want to be a giver in every sense of the word. i want to give my life away!!!

We watched "Passion of the Christ" today in church it just hit me like a tun of bricks. " Jesus thats how much you love me????" wow!!

As i lifted my hands and the tears just flowed i thought " wow!! i can come to church and worship you with other believers. wow. in freedom !!! what a priveledge!!!

Its as if my heart was recieving a heavenly down load and the warmth and beauty of my heavenly father was overwelming me!!!

nothing like recieving his love!!!!

I have noticed something in my life i want to press in to, to fully discover, and that is that when things are going great, I've got the money i need, no suffering. nothing wrong in my life. everything is just seemly perfect at the moment .

even in these times, as i feed my spirit the word of God and spend time in his presence asking for his heart. or any other thing.

well.... he does it. he really does it. i ask for a brokeness and he begins to break me. i ask for his fire and he sends it!!! i ask to know his love and he shows it to me.

i ask for humility and he begins to humble me.

wow !!!! those that hunger and thrist for right standing with the father shall be filled!!!!

those who seek me shall find me. says the lord of host.

so... what do i conclude ????

that when my life is in plenty or seemingly depleted i will praise him. i will seek him.

SAINTS WE NEED TO ASK THE LORD TO HELP US DISCOVER WHO WE ARE IN CHRIST AND WHAT IS OURS BECAUSE WE ARE IN HIM.

God can use suffering and poverty to bring us closer to him. Does it mean we are more spiritual if we are suffering or living in poverty????? of course not.

always remember MAN looks on the outward but God looks at the motives of our hearts!!!!

so what do we need to??? seek after poverty and suffering??? that wont really help any one. me living half broke all the time wont help anyone. me living pay check to pay check wont really help anyone or prove anything.

seek FIRST Gods kingdom which is right standing with god, peace and joy in the holy ghost.

then, ask God to keep you, give him your life and just enjoy the jorney of loving him and recieving his love!!!

fill your mind and mouth with the word. get out all the verses that talk about who you are in christ and what is yours as HIS child and confess and apply it!!!!

as you do you will soon discover you are not a victom but a victor, you are the head and not the tail, above and not beneath. you can do ALL things through christ and fear and doubt must bow to the name of Jesus in your life!!! every strong hold in your life MUST bow to the mighty name of Jesus!!!

The enemy has come to STEAL from you. KILL AND DESTROY you- financally, phisically, spiritually and in every other way.

The wealth of the wicked is layed up for the righteous!!!! Praise God!!!!!

As i spread my arms wide open to recieve the ALL the blessings he is pouring out upon my life all i can do is cry and cry and say " to God be the glory, great things he has done and will do!!!"

freely you have recieved, freely give!!!!

oh, the joy of giving. i long to discover it on a whole new level!!!

knowing he has washing me in that precious blood and he is mine and i am his.

have you ever wondered why there is diamonds, rubies and gold in heaven???

why???

Jesus is the king of all kings!!! Lord of all Lords!!! they are a reflection and representation of his beauty, glory and slendor !!!

when Jesus came to this earth he was the second adam!!!! he as freed us from the law of sin and death and because of the new cov. we can now bring a slice of heaven to earth.

what does that look like?? well. in my mind. it is indescibably beautiful and breath taking.

it is someone walking in the POWER of God, the LOVE of God and the blessings of God in every area of their life!!! think about what heavens like and pray it down!!!

so hungry, so passionate about the God they love.

When you are near them you see, smell and feel the savior.

I believe its his desire to bless his children in every way!! I believe God wants to prosper and bless his own.

God wants us to seek him like never before. Stop limiting yourself but most of all stop limiting God!!!!

He is everything. an all consuming fire!!!!

My hearts longing is to show him to the world with the way i live my life!!! may i bring him glory with all he is entrusting me with.

i have not because i ask not. sometimes because of a lack of faith. sometimes because of fear.

either way, day by day and step by step im going higher, im digging deeper and im moving foward. forgetting those things which are behind.

im PRESSING im pressing. so... i can recieve the prize. what the prize???

to hear the father say

"well done though good and faithful servant!!!"

DONT let satan bully you around but YOU tell him how its going to be!!!

I got to share Jesus with this girl in MCdonalds the other day. i held her hand and shared the love of christ with her. I also got to share the gospel of christ. it flowed from my heart to hers. from my spirit i spoke to her spirit and she was VERY receptive.

i left feeling like thats what makes life worth living. thats what its alll about!!!!

Gods love. wow!!! amazing!!!